Friday, September 17, 2010

I'm............ PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!

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Hilariously enough... I'm not going "facebook-public" with this news.  So if I do happen to know you, email me, let's celebrate, but please don't mention anything on Facebook yet!  Most of my friends and family don't read my blog, and I wanted to sort of explain what's been going on with me recently, and how it's been affecting my life and yoga practice.

So we did start trying in July, and things have been incredibly rocky all the way through until about a week ago.  My body was not exactly acting according to my plans, and it was making me kind of crazy.  I had an incredibly difficult time accepting what was going on.  I hardly had the energy to practice consistently and did not have the positivity I always try to connect with when I write.  Thus... blog silence for the most part.  Though I believe people like to read the truth, I also believe that if you're going to put things out there in the universe, err on the side of being positive.  If you don't have something positive to say, maybe it's best to hang back.

I struggled with exercise, turned to food, and slipped a bit into a bare minimum style of living, where getting through the day and getting home seemed like an incredible triumph.

So a week ago today I took a pregnancy test and it was positive!!!  I'm ecstatic.  I know it's quite early on in the process but my policy has been to tell many people I'm close to in my daily life.  First of all I have absolutely no poker face and second of all if something does happen I would want all the support I can get.

So now begins the joys and challenges of practicing Bikram while pregnant, and just, in general, living while pregnant!  I already find it challenging to be in the hot room and notice that because of the increased blood in my system, the increased demands on the heart of pumping said blood, that I get to that heart-slamming place a lot faster than I used to.

I have made a policy for a while of staying out of the front row and kind of minding my own business in the back of the room so as to keep from getting my ego involved in my practice.  It's medicine, and it doesn't matter what the poses look like, it's what's right for you on any given day.  Blank slate.  What does this mean for my practice so far?  Sometimes I have to spend a little time in standing bow set up just literally catching my breath.  Kicking out in head to knee is optional though I've been doing it (hence the need to catch my breath in standing bow.)  The spine strengthening series all I can say is OW OW OW OW!  When I'm on my belly.  Locust pose I've stopped smashing my breasts with my arms which means I can't get my hands together.

Everything else is still normal.

Teaching... wow.  This is where I feel it.  I get out of breath and sometimes have to stop talking to catch my breath.

The physiological effects of pregnancy are so fascinating to me.  It's like I'm my own science experiment for the next eight months or so.  I'm looking forward to blogging about it.  I do intend to keep this blog as a yoga blog and I don't intend to turn it into a baby blog or anything.  I'm not a big fan of kid blogs because I think it violates the privacy of the child.  Who wants to know that mom posted pics of you in the bath when you were little??? Really???

In general I'm grateful for this gift, this experience, and the strength I needed to get through a challenging time. I couldn't have asked for a more positive and awesome conclusion to that chapter and I'm excited for the new story that's just beginning.  Namaste all friends.

6 comments:

Catherine said...

Congratulations! What an exciting, scary, amazing time. Wishing you excellent health for this joyous science experiment!

And thanks so much for the Kraftsow reminder. Every time you've written about it, I think, "I really should check that out..." Think I'm ready to get up and do it, *now*. :)

Congratulations again! xo

ellelove7 said...

Ooohhh!!! Congratulations!!! I'll be so excited to read about your practicing while pregnant! An experience I hope to go through myself one day. :)

anna said...

Thanks Catherine and Elle :) I'm super excited and a tiny bit queasy. First "report" on pregnancy practice was that yesterday I skipped class. I was so tired when I woke up that I lounged in bed. Hahaha

yogiclarebear.com said...

OH OH OH OH!!!! So wonderful Anna! I'm terribly happy for you, and am looking forward to following this part of your journey. I teach pre-natal yoga and have a few resources on my blog. Gosh my heart is just soaring for you! God bless!

barbarakosciewicz said...

Congrats! This is an amazing time for you! I look forward to your posts about yoga through pregnancy and your changing body.

anna said...

clare - I have been eyeing those resources and will be using them for SURE!!! Thank you barbara for the kind wishes... Doing great now I'm starting to really adjust.